Confessions

I'm going through a lot right now, and I wonder if you ever feel the same way sometimes. Those stages in your life where everything is moving so fast or where it feels like everything is happening all at once. Or is it just me?

I'm currently in the process of becoming a facilitator to continue hosting women's circles. I work full-time at my own company, and this Thursday, I have my driving test, which I hope to pass. This is not to mention the day-to-day responsibilities and the planning for the upcoming trips I'll be taking in the next few months - Seville, Denmark, Spain. There's nothing that makes me happier than traveling!

Behind every trip, there's a logistics plan with Thomas, and I have my financial logistics to travel happily but on a low budget. I've already found accommodation in Copenhagen through Couchsurfing, and I've also found someone to take care of Thomas while I'm in Spain in December thanks to the TrustedHousesitters app. I hope to find generous souls who will host me in their homes in Spain, where I'll be starting from December 11th.

While all of this is happening, I'm still making time for reading, exercise, and cooking my meals, taking Thomas for walks, and in the midst of it all, I've made time for human connections that make me happy.

I'm all about living, and I feel like I take it very seriously, and I truly don't know how not to. However, I'm increasingly aware that my present moment, my surroundings, and doing one thing at a time are magical, VERY MAGICAL.

I have so much to be thankful for amid all these happenings, and it's the community I have by my side. Despite not having family in England, I have incredible people who support me, from taking care of Thomas to helping me with tasks or giving me a lift somewhere.

This surrounding community helps me make things happen. I appreciate that it comes naturally to me to ask for help and to express gratitude for that help.

I still have in my mind the book I read in January by Michael Singer, (The Surrender Experiment) , where through his life story, he shows how to live with openness to wherever life takes us and to let things unfold without the need to control anything. That's how I've been, listening to my intuition and being guided, and acting through that guidance. It's eye-opening, intense, and quite crazy, especially when you're not used to it and when you think you control everything, but you really don't baby.

I've missed writing, but honestly, I couldn't find the right topic. I've wanted to write about various things, like what women want from men, numerology and my connection with the number 21, my recent experience of fasting for two days, talking about pleasure, or how to live without spending a dime, women's financial independence, and what it means. There are so many discussion topics in my head, and today, the most sensible thing is to write about what I'm experiencing - a life that's moving at a thousand miles an hour.

I must confess that I'm dreaming of those days when I'll be at the Vipassana retreat, 10 days without contact with the external world, 10 days with my soul, 10 days in silence where I go with no expectations but with a need to be there. There's nothing more intimate than silence, and it has been challenging for me in recent months.

My meditations, yoga, walks, and sleep are my sacred spaces to cope with all this current movement.

Today, I just wanted to confess that I'm moving and letting myself be carried.

That I'm breathing and sustaining myself and letting myself be sustained.

Today, I want to confess that life is fascinating, and every day I discover something new about the mind, how it works, my body, my personality, my limiting beliefs.

Today, I want to confess that I feel exhausted, and I wonder if I'll ever have a life of slow living or more conscious living, or if I should simply acknowledge that I enjoy the hustle and bustle :)

Today, I want to confess that I have big dreams, and I'm working towards them, and one of them is to live with fullness, confidence, and love for everything I do, with congruence and evolution.

Today, I want to confess that another dream is to continue developing my faith.

One of those dreams is to keep writing and creating a community.

Thank you for reading, Naked Woman

Next book that I want to read, if you have it at home, feel free to send it to me :) I return books